What an incredible fall it has been!
I sent my oldest daughter off to first grade and she is doing so great and loving school!!! She’s so sweet and smart and makes me so proud every day! She is growing so fast and there are days I get some glimpses into what she will look and be like when she’s older. It’s terrifying and wonderful all at once!
And my youngest child, my sweet baby, has her 3rd birthday coming up. She has absolutely captured my heart in every way! She is so funny and has such a personality! I want to bottle her up and never let her grow up! Every thing she says is funny, the way she says it is funny and the faces she makes are funny! Be still my heart! She got potty trained early this fall and she is starting to lose that baby look!
My wonderful boyfriend and I had a great little trip to Vegas over Labor Day to celebrate the wedding of some close friends. It was so much fun and a beautiful celebration! I played in a nice little women’s poker tournament through the Ladies International Poker Series (LIPS) and got first place! We enjoyed great food and spent time the way we love to spend it!
We also love to take in the Iowa City atmosphere on Hawkeye game days, and this past weekend I got my first glimpse inside of Kinnick stadium. It was so much fun!!! I even recently referred to the Florida Gators as “we are playing our 3rd string quarterback.” Yes, I have officially inherited his team.
But really, it’s the day to day things that have me on cloud nine! The anniversary passed recently of when I moved out and filed for divorce several years ago. Sometimes it’s hard to believe it’s been that long and sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago! But it was a time for reflection, on how much my life has changed.
I remember how often I was filled with such hopelessness back then. I would cry and feel so alone- and wonder how I could bear a lifetime of such despair. Because I was truly resigned to that being my fate. No choices. No divorce. Ever. I wondered if my children would see the sadness etched in my face. If I would grow old and regret having not been loved.
But then thanks to the advice and influence of a great marriage counselor (or I guess in this case… divorce counselor???), I finally had the courage and mindset to change my life. And I have never regretted it!
Now, in my favorite season, I sit on the deck on brisk fall mornings and enjoy brunch with the love of my life. I travel and see the world. I get to discuss life and worries and joys and everything in between. My “family” has expanded to include so many wonderful people! I have unconditional support in every endeavor I undertake. I have someone who sits on 3 hours car rides and doesn’t even flinch when I play my favorite CD- consisting of Johnny Cash, Loretta Lynn and Conway Twitty- the entire trip. I have someone who misses me when I’m gone and who works hard to make me smile. Someone who I would do anything to make smile. My very favorite times are when we have a great family dinner, tuck the kids in, DVR our favorite shows, share some wine, and snuggle up. I want to go back and hug my former self from 3 years ago- and say, "Trust me. True happiness is coming. Just be patient."
It’s just so freaking amazing.