It's been a busy month and I've been away from my computer alot!!!
My ex husband got his 2nd week with the kids. Four times a year he gets them for a week. It just about kills me. I miss everything about them. Their little voices, our tuck ins, the funny things they say non stop, the sweet ways they have, and the beautiful way they interact with each other. I miss it all! There's just something unnatural about a mother being away from her kids for that much time. I worry most about my little girl Millie. She's just a year and a half and I know she doesn't understand it all. Most days they still go to daycare when he has them, so I can stop and see their smiling faces. My little one runs to me and says "MAMA, MAMA, MAMA!" and jumps into my arms and just smiles her little crooked smile. It just melts me! My older one acts a little cooler- she lights up then brings it back down and says something like "hey Mom." But then she quickly finds her way onto my other knee. The little one cries when I leave. It's so hard on me. I just want find a way to be with her!
But we made it through and it will be awhile before we have to endure one of these weeks again. It will be good for all of us to get in our routines! In other news, my oldest started kidnergarten yesterday. It breaks my heart thinking this is the end of her innocence! She's still at that beautiful age where she doesn't really know what it is to be self conscious, or to compare herself to someone else. She's happiest just playing and being creative!
I'm so blessed, they're such happy, healthy kids!